Going to a wedding
Tuesday, August 31st, 2010
I love weddings, even when I’m not the bride.
This one is a bit different. I got my lapband on and I haven’t lost all the weight yet. I know it’s not the end of the world but I left the town where the wedding is just after I’d lost my first 30 pounds. I still needed another 20 off and they’re nearly all still with me. I worry that I’m going to be asked “How come it didn’t work??”
What do I say?
“Uhhh, I lost it all and then I found it?” It’s not true. “I went through a hellish 2 1/2 years and I didn’t care if I lost weight?” That’s too much information for people who care about me.
I’m going to think positively and assume all my old friends will be glad to see us at the wedding and nobody will care that I’m not skinny. If they do, are they really friends at all?
My dear husband has been eating rabbit food for the past 2 weeks. He says he’s trying to feel better but I know he wants to look good at the wedding. I’m not sure why I can’t get my head in that space but it just won’t fit right now. I’m not gorging on chocolate truffles but my portion size could stand a cutback.
Do you ever find yourself wishing you had the determination to take it all off.. NOW ? That’s what I’m searching for – determination.
Sonja’s Sojourns is the title of a series of